freakyteen19

wow.

i haven't posted any entry in 33 weeks.

that's more than 8 months. haha.

oh, well. here's an entry.

hahaha.

Waaahhh!!

I don't know what to say.

I can't believe I passed EUROECO!!

I got 1.5.

I thought I'd get 0.0.

And I only wished for 1.0.

But I got 1.5.

Waah!

I just can't believe it.

I almost cried. Waah!

Thanks Sir Taningco!!

I love you. Nyaknyak!

Thanks Krizza. Haha!

You know what I mean. Wahahaha!!


Okay.

Stop it Fidji.

Hehe.


I can now enjoy my summer.

I'm still under priority enrollment.

Yipee!!


Enjoy your vacation guys.

See ye next month. ='_)

I've finally found the song I've been looking for.

The PERFECT song I can dedicate to that someone.


I said GOODBYE moments ago.

Yes. I was the one who said it.

And I didn't reply to his last message.

I won't communicate with him in anymore.

Promise.


You're not dreaming.

This is FIDJI typing all this.

Yes. It's me. ='_)


March 22, 2006.

I was officially OVER him.

I don't LOVE him anymore.

You can now look into my eyes.

And I can honestly say that I'M OVER HIM.


So, here's the last song I'm gonna dedicate to him.


( Goodbye To You - Breaking Point )


P.S.

habburdae ISABELLE..wiih!!='_)

Last March 5, at around 1-2am, I was listening to Bryan McKnight's One Last Cry.

Then tears were falling. And I can't help it.

So, in that moment, I told myself, "This will be the last tears I will shed for you."

Well, that was the nth time (and the 2nd time I took it seriously) I told myself those words.


A while ago, I heard myself say those words again. *Sigh!*

I wish this will be the last time I will say those words.

I wish...


I don't know exactly what I feel right now.

I miss him.

I hate him.

I love him.

I miss the past.

I hate the past.

I feel sorry for myself.

I'm happy for them. *Really?!*


Is this the effect of not eating breakfast, lunch and dinner?

Or is this the effect of seeing pictures of him?


I feel weak, but I don't wanna go to bed yet.

And I don't wanna eat anything.


Maybe, I'd just drink water.

Yes. Water.

So, tears will fall later.

And I can cry my "ONE LAST CRY"..

A song to that someone.

Haii..='_(

When will I ever get over you?

I hate myself for loving you this much.

You don't deserve my love.

Why you?!Why?!Huhuhuhu..


I'm hurting too much.

And I don't know what to do to stop it.


I'm feeling mixed feelings right now.

I wanna cry. But there are no tears falling from my eyes.

Maybe my tear ducts are now dry from crying and crying.

They say crying without tears hurt even more.

Now I know. It really hurts more.



Magbalik
by Callalily

Wala na ang dating pagtingin
Sawa na ba saking lambing
Wala ka namang dahilan
Bakit bigla na lang nangiwan

Hindi na alam ang gagawin
Upang ika’y magbalik sakin
Ginawa ko naman ang lahat
Bakit bigla na lang naghanap

Hindi magbabago
Pagmamahal sa iyo
Sana’y pakinggan mo
Ang awit ng pusong ito

Tulad ng mundong hindi
Tumitigil sa pag-ikot
Pag ibig di mapapagod

Tulad ng ilog na hindi
Tumitigil sa pag agos
Pag ibig di matatapos

Alaala’y bumabalik
Mga panahong nasasabik
Sukdulang mukha mo ay
Laging nasa panaginip

Bakit biglang pinagpalit
Pagsasamaha’y tila nawaglit
Ang dating walang hanggan
Nagkaroon ng katapusan

Hindi magbabago
Pagmamahal sa iyo
Sana’y pakinggan mo
Ang awit ng pusong ito

Tulad ng mundong hindi
Tumitigil sa pag-ikot
Pag ibig di mapapagod

Tulad ng ilog na hindi
Tumitigil sa pag agos
Pag ibig di matatapos

Tulad ng mundong hindi
Tumitigil sa pag-ikot
Pag ibig di mapapagod

Tulad ng ilog na hindi
Tumitigil sa pag agos
Pag ibig di matatapos

Tumitigil
(Pag-ibig di matatapos)
Tumitigil
Pag-ibig di magtatapos

I haven't checked my LJ for exactly two weeks now.

Well, I'm here once again.


Many things happened to me in the past two weeks.

But all I can remember is that EUROECO midterm exam result. ='_(


I only got 10 over 50, which is 20%. Huhu!

OMG!! I am oh so DEAD!!


I should have studied for that exam. Huh!

I am blaming HBO for this.

For showing "The Perfect Man" the night before the exam.


Now, I'm putting the blame on something else.

It's my fault, I know.


Urgh! I hate myself.

For not studying well for any of my midterm exams.

For blaming other things for this.

And for not taking my studies seriously.


I don't wanna repeat any course. Huhu.

And most of all, I don't wanna be delayed. ='_(


I hope Mr. Taningco will be considerate enough to give me 1.0 on my course card.

I can't promise to study well,'coz I know, I really can't.

But I will try my best to focus this time.

Whew!!EUPOGOV and INTEORG major exams are done. Hurrah!!

I've squeezed my brain until the last drop of its juice.

I hope I can get 50 on both subjects.

It's impossible for me to get that grade, but I hope I can.

Of course, a grade of 60 (passing score) would be better.

But I don't think I can get a 60.

I'd be fine with 40.


Thank God, it's almost done.

Just one more major exam. EUROECO.

Oh my, I dunno what and how to review.


I so hate myself for choosing this course. Huhu.


And I thought I can rest this day.

*EUPOGOV notes calling..*

I'm coming...............

Whew!Midterm exams on EUPOGOV (Monday), INTEORG (Tuesday), and EUROECO (Friday) next week. Waah!!

Add the Poetry Recital on LITERA2 (Wednesday). Dammit! I have so many things to do.

And here I am posting an entry. Hahaha!

I haven't posted any entry for three weeks now I think.

I didn't post an entry last February 14 too. *Was it a special day? No.*

Do I sound bitter? *Yeah, maybe. Haha!*


Well, anyways, I would just like to share what I feel today. =')

My ex texted me this -- "An0h g2wn m0h skul mha? L0veu p0"

You know what I felt?! Nothing. Really. It just made me smile.

Unlike before that my knees get weak and I get goosebumps.

What is this feeling? Have I moved on?

I told him -- "..waG mOh Qu gnGnyan..eHe."

He said -- "Asus s0ri p0h.. S0ri tlga.. Yngat kah."

I told him -- "..heHe, Baka maniwaLa nnMn aQu..haHa. Qaw Dn, ynGat.."

He said sorry again.

Then I told him -- "..heHe, 8z Okay..u diDnt mean it anyway..heHe."

That was it.

So, have I moved on?! I don't know. Maybe. I hope.

I wish I'll feel this way until I find a new one. Hehe.


That's it. Review time. =')

Goodluck course'mates. We can do this. =')

Tata! *Poof!*

Listen
by Stonefree

close the door
i feel a breeze hold me please
i hate to be alone
it's a cold night,
turn off the light
come take my hand and...

CHORUS:
listen,
to these things i have to say
please understand, she
left me all alone again...

clear the room of every memory
i don't want our song back on
it's an endless maze
take away this haze
mend my heart and...
(repeat chorus 2x)

turn away, don't want you to see me cry
i just want things the way they were
why is it so hard to say goodbye?
wipe my tears and...
(repeat chorus)

so this i ask of you
please stay with me
until she comes back
until she comes
until she comes back
until she comes
please listen and stay
until she comes
until she comes back
until she comes back...